The impossible happened today! I gave up on you, on us! One day you’ll see that it should have been me! ..
21.05.13 - cont
I guess the temptation was too strong, you’ve hurt me, and you’ve made the wrong decision, now I loose control, every once I was gaining, gone! .. In one text .. Happiness was destroyed .. Left with nothing but sadness to fill the empty parts of my soul .. I really can’t believe my day has turned out like this …
So today there is a temptation, A temptation I never thought would be there, it’s only cause I got told by another person something I don’t want to believe, cause I believe him! :/ Resist the temptation, Watch movies, Drink tea! And push it out your head .. Resist! You can do this!
So it’s been a little while since I updated tumblr, probably been about 2 years!! A lot has happened in those two years, I lost myself and rediscovered myself a lot :/ it’s been a mixture of emotions and at the same time a theme park ride full of fun! I don’t know honestly where to start on updating you on what’s happened, since Adrian passed away (very sad day, it was...
It must have been like ages since i like updated this and when I signed in, it said “incorrect password” and i swear to god I like nearly cried, But yeah, so alot has happened in the pass couple of weeks! First of all, me and my now ex split and really for a little while it was difficult and it was hard but like a month went by we didn’t speak at all and kinda like that was it,...
So it has been like four days since we spoke and well right about now, Even though the sad thoughts have popped up and they are starting to get to me slightly, I will be stronger than this, I won’t allow this to happen to me! .. In a way this week has been alot easier due to my bestest friend Katie being over for the whole week, I have enjoyed the company and well it has been taking my mind...
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Eric ... (;
2 nights so far can we make it a 3rd?
The reason for existence, Clearer than day! Shining bright upon my face, love, safety and needed. You took it away, You stole my life. You too away my faith, Say goodbye to innocence! Clearer then day, The reason of an existence! My existence floated away with the city in flames. Destruction caused with the power i wield I flatten you’re hope and love, You’re not what i want ...
Sometimes, I wonder if things were possible, Sometimes, I wonder if for once the one basic human need would be met, If only it was possible for half the stuff that goes through my head would just disperse, Out my head and somewhere else. I love him! and the only time i can let him know is when he is on chat. I miss him! again only when on chat. All because it’s not manly! Do you know...
What’s my problem …
I guess tonight is the night i cry myself to sleep … </3
Sometimes i wish for more, Sometimes it’s more of a journey then anything, Sometimes the path will lead of into new directions for you to follow, It’s up to you to follow you’re heart to where you end up nobody knows, But we all hope it ends up with the person who we spend our life with! I’ll tell you forever && ever till my last breath …..
I think in life, those who love, will love but those who hate, hate, I mean right now, I can’t put a finger on how i feel, I mean anger is one, I just want to grab his tiny fucking face and bounce it off every wall i come across but then i have this conflicting emotion of pity i pity the guy so much, His misfortune is now my fortune, He fucked it up, He screwed up the best thing to of ever...
i know things ain’t easy and i knew they would be hard, I know i have mood swings and i don’t know half the time what im doing wrong or even if i am doing anything wrong, I just wish things were easy, I’ve now come to terms with why my life is no longer simple and i know exactly what has fucked it up :/ since the day i was born, I knew my life would not be simple. i knew it would...
Right so i thought i would explain my rather shitty day! Went for my interview at the shit pit .. Some lady pissed me off to the point i wanted to smack her head into the table! The the other thing that pisses me off and i don’t mean it in a nasty way. But couples, I hate them all, Walking along holding hands and just grr! i feel the need to kill them :’( Then it got a little better...
So well, i guess today has been kinda hard, Its been a good day don’t get me wrong, I loved going to harry potter with my mum, And i had a nice meal after with her, But well, I know he is busy, I respect this soo much, but 24 hours with no word :( well i had a nightmare the night bar, Basically it was me, Adrian and Katie and what was and did start of as a amazing dream then turned bad when...
I thought seen as i cannot sleep i would update my tumblr seen as i have not updated it in a while and the reason is cause i mean i know i have had my major up’s thanks to some wonderful people in my life, Adrian King, Katie Leach and Sophie Reeve. These 3 are like amazing. Adrian King - My Boyfriend, My One and My Only (and my last) this is the guy who i wish and give the rest of my life...
So im guessing its been a long time since i update this thing, Well thats cause i was busy with stuff. I mean i have been at college, My love life has taken an all time high, i have loads of loving friends around me, and well home life is alot better. I mean right now, Im not having such a good time, I mean like in the sense of im not feeling at all well, And now on top of everything i deleted my...
So today i have been thinking of new idea’s for tattoo’s .. First Idea .. I was thinking on my arm .. Im thinking it’s lame, But im not sure. - You’re my past, present and future .. Second Idea .. I was thinking .. I like this, Cause it explains alot and it means something to me .. - you tried to conquer, but yet you failed, i’ll never be tamed. And finally my...
Well, i don’t know what to say, For the past 3 days, Well i’ve been tired, Rather over tired, And well, I’ve been starting to feel bad about some things, I mean for the past 3 days, Me and Adrian have hardly spoken, And that’s all cause of me, Because i have been tired, for no reason, So this time, I’ve slept last night, For a long time, So that should be good enough...
So i have not posted anything in a few days, I don’t think it’s cause i have been busy but literally, I just have not felt the need to update on anything but now i feel the need to tell you that last night, Well it got messy ;3 Cocktails, Vodka && Coke’s and about 2 shots Amaretto and a Sambucca .. Dammn, I drunk way to much and i still feel pissed :/ It’s not bad,...